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I Am A: True Neutral Human Ranger (6th Level)

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True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. She doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment when it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.

Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.

Rangers are skilled stalkers and hunters who make their home in the woods. Their martial skill is nearly the equal of the fighter, but they lack the latter's dedication to the craft of fighting. Instead, the ranger focuses her skills and training on a specific enemy a type of creature he bears a vengeful grudge against and hunts above all others.
Rangers often accept the role of protector, aiding those who live in or travel through the woods. Her skills allow her to move quietly and stick to the shadows, especially in natural settings, and she also has special knowledge of certain types of creatures. Finally, an experienced ranger has such a tie to nature that she can actually draw on natural power to cast divine spells, much as a druid does, and like a druid she is often accompanied by animal companions. A ranger's Wisdom score should be high, as this determines the maximum spell level that she can cast.

Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

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He was a shaman, a bard, a priest, a gifted artist and a walker between worlds. I'll miss him as a friend and as a colleague and as a gifted practitioner of the magical arts who I could call on when I needed. May he sit in Odin's hall and ever have an appreciative audience and a drink at his elbow. May his demons never pursue him again in any of the nine realms and may his spirit find the peace in death he never found in life.

I don't feel the need to say any more than this.

Safe journey Bear

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Dear UK Flisters,

I know I'm preaching to the choir with you guys when it comes to LGBT equality, but believing something is fair and actually getting off your bum and doing something about it doesn't always follow like it should. So here's a little (and slightly preachy) reminder!!

Three things I'd like you all to do before you go to bed tonight (if you haven't already)

1/ Go here and sign the C4EM's petition for marriage equality. This is the simplest and probably most visible way to show your support. It currently has 60,000 signatures -- the petition against (by C4M) has over 500,000!!!

2/ Go here and fill out the government's consultation. It might take a little bit longer, but you can bet that for every pro-person who doesn't find the time, there will be dozens of 'anti' people who will.

3/ Email your MP. There's a handy template there for you to use so you don't even have to think of what to say. Also, you can go here to see where your MP stands on the issue. A hugely important thing to do because the majority of MPs will be voting with their conscience rather than following the party line, so make sure you let yours know your feelings.

4/ Okay, so I lied. There's actually a fourth thing. And that is simply spread the word. The consultation ends in two day - it's our last chance to get as many people mobilised as possible. So tweet it, Facebook, blog it, beat your friends and family around the head with it until they give in!!! And if you want to repost to your own journal (and please feel free to edit), here's an ever-so helpful button

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I may have just found the best & quickest dairy free cream sauce for pasta ever.

melt some goats butter or other alternative, add a few splashes of oat milk and a good few squeezes of mushroom yeast pate - stir together and toss in pasta. Add salt and pepper. Serve.

*Edit* May add a few chilli flakes next time and a bit of garlic.

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Well, I've had a good few days of getting used to the #kindle - yep, I love it.

Found this site that is proving fun and thought some of you might find it useful http://www.new-daily-free-ebooks.com/

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What is the best present you received this year?

My Kindle I got this year - Has warm and fuzzies
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What's the last thing you bought?

Aside from groceries - a pair of Yaktrax
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Cabin in the woods. By a lake. Long way away.

But that is probably because I want to hide from stuff at the moment.


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If you could cast one type of magic spell, which would you choose, and why?

There's even a choice?

Healing of mind, body and spirit.
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The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)High
Level 2 (Lustful)Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Low
Level 7 (Violent)Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test
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Happy Coming-Out Day.

Homophobia, like racism, is a sickness. A sickness that drives apparently rational human beings to irrational cruelty. In the name of a fear of difference, We the People - to this day - enact and defend laws that rob our fellow citizens of their rights and humanity.... sometimes even their lives. In the name of codes scribbled down by ancient desert patriarchs, otherwise rational - even compassionate - human beings insist that people who do not fit a social definition of normalcy are unworthy of freedom, love, life or justice. This is insanity. It is blasphemy. It is cruelty of the deepest sort to hate your own child because some millenia-old page of so-called prophecy told you to do so. It is, I believe, an affront to a Divinity that made us as we are, that shaped an infinite cosmos of staggering diversity... a diversity that includes "gay" behavior among animals as well as human beings.

To hell, literally, with that.

It's no secret to anyone who actually reads the Levitican and Deuteronical codes that such laws were scribed by men, not Divinity. They're ancient legacies of social control, not timeless revelations of godly preference. Who actually still believes that the Creator Of All Things is pleased by the scent of burning bull-flesh? That such an entity wants children to have their hands cut off or their bones broken with stones thrown by their own parents? Who truly thinks that a loving, just and merciful god wants rape victims stoned to death for screaming too softly, or sanctions the rape and slavery of non-Jewish women? If we can put aside all the laws equating menstruation with leprosy, the commandments to kill people working on the Sabbath Day, or the blessings given to those who smash out infant brains upon stones... why then do we cling with such tenacity to related laws against unorthodox sexuality?

Why do my father's words still seem radical almost 35 years after he said them to me?

In time, I did embrace a sexual identification of queer. Not as gay - in roughly 30 very sexually active years, I have yet to seriously want to date, much less fuck, another man - but as a polyamorous, pansensual and occasionally kinky satyr-dude. My involvement in the BDSM lifestyle is, perhaps, a subject for a different article, and my near-lifetime nonmongamy is obvious to anyone who knows me. As I learned back in my San Francisco days, though, "queer" refers to any non-mainstream sex or gender orientation. And as is obvious by my "Satyr" nickname, I'm pretty proud about being that.

In unity with all my fellow human beings of all adult, consensual orientations - most especially with the "unconventional" folks who lack understanding parents - I am proudly queer. Deal with it.

There's no closet involved. My parents know about my unconventional relationships, and really don't want to know about the specifics of what I do with whom. To them, however, that's all a non-issue.

I wish that was true of every parent, of every child, in every family on earth.

Let's make a future where it is.

Love knows no color, no biology, no private parts.

It is humanity, not Divinity, that separates us up by fear.

And it is fear of diversity that we must conquer, must transcend, must make obsolete in this 21st century CE.

Because if we can't do so, humanity itself will be rendered obsolete.

That would be more than simply sad. It would be stupid.

And frankly, as the children of women, men and gods, we deserve better than to die from our own stupidity.

Let us, instead, do as the Bible itself proclaimed. Let us love one another, as we are loved by God.

Permission granted to link or repost with attribution. Article copyright(c) SatyrPhil Brucato, 2010


Posted as someone who's always been outside the 'norm' and who has felt the lash of spite and willful refusal to even try to understand from family, 'friends' and society too many times.
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You are the Hanged Man

Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound.

With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of
loss from a situation, rather than gain.

The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes.

The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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If you could have one--and only one--wish granted in the next five minutes, what would you wish? How do you think it would improve your life?

That one is easy to answer. New healthy spine for a friend. Would it improve my life is irrelevant, it would improve his.
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There is an anonymous survey set up by Mike (poodle ref) to get as much quality no holds barred feedback about the event and faction as possible.

Here's the link    www.surveymonkey.com/s/R8F2KFS    or you can find the thread and original link on the forum but as I know some of you don't go on there often and he specifically asked us all to pass it on to as many people as possible here it is in LJ land.

Let's take the opportunity to get our opinions heard in a way that minimises the possibility of drama shall we?

Thanks guys

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If you were given a life do-over card, would you keep it or give it to a friend? If you kept it, would you prefer to be born to the same or different parents? Would you want to keep your memories?

Well. Given my last post, the chance to do it all again with a clean slate....no.

I've dealt with it and pretty much moved on. If the God's gave me that card I can think of several people, people I love, who'd get much better use from it. If only for the chance to go back remembering things and not be in certain places at certain times.
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I'll say here and now that this particular post has needed to be written for a few months but I kept putting it off - kept dodging the issue. Even when the God's nudged me I was sidestepping but tonight, tonight it needs to be done because, if nothing else it is a part of me and a part of me I'M NOT ASHAMED OF.

A few of you probably know or have guessed some of this, I'll apologise now if any of you ask why didn't she say - it doesn't work like that I'm afraid. Someone I love dearly asked me a few weeks ago why I never talk about these things and I got 'a good talking to' when I replied that I don't like dumping unpleasantness on my friends.
Cut for child abuse triggersCollapse )
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TEN things about me:
1. I'm Pagan and proud of it - every trial is a learning experience sent by the God's - all we have to do is work out what the lesson is.
2. When I give my loyalty you'll almost have to destroy ME to destroy it.
3. I'm not the person you see
4. or the person you want me to be.
5. I'm nearer being at peace now than I've ever been in my life
6. but I still carry the map of where I've been carved in my soul and still have to watch for the demons in the dark
7. I judge every single person on who they are
8. and despite having a reputation as a bitch in some circles I more often get a bollocking from those who love me for being too tolerant than for running out of patience.
9. I do believe that love is infinite
10. but I know time isn't

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN people right now:
1. Grow up - I am not my character and my character is not me.
2. It will be ok.
3. I'm sorry I let you down by being me.
4. It's a mistake, I can't tell you that, I hope I'm wrong and I'll be there for you, without judgement, if I'm right.
5. You are a hypocrite and a dwarmah queen and I'm tired of you hurting people.
6. I feel more alive with you than at any other time.
7. I still love you.
8. Please, just once, get something done when I ask nicely - so I don't have to kick off weeks later when it's not sorted.
9. Well done, it was worth the work and the pain and the time.
10. Goodbye. ( Although that is something I wish I'd had an opportunity to say to someone a long time ago)

TEN ways to win your heart:
1. Hug me.
2. Coffeeeeeeee
3. Let me be me.
4. Understand that the part of me you know isn't all of me but as much as I have the courage to show you.
5. Teach me something new.
6. Don't be jealous.
7. Or possessive.
8. Surprise me - even if it's only by turning up with a silly grin and an hour free.
9. Be that knight in shining armour but grin and tell me you know I can kill my own dragons all the same.
10. Neck rubs.

TEN people who mean a lot at the moment: (in no particular order)
1. Chris
2. Andy
3. Andy
4. Adie
5. Roz
6. Pan
7. Kit
8. Gwen
9. Morgan
10. Mark

May edit with a few more 10's tomorrow
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I'm all ok folks, just stupid busy and it's likely not going to improve in the next few months. I'm still reading and will try to comment but with the exception of some larp related stuff (Ye God's I'm glad I have that for a chance to occasionally relax) I'll not be around a lot.

Love you all and I'll try to post the most interesting things.

For now I have my own car again which gives me a massive increase in freedom while costing me money, I have an opportunity to update my skill set to give me a real opportunity to get back into a field of work I actually love and I have wonderful, loyal, loving, complex and occasionally infuriating people in my life.

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Snagged from wildcelticrose  I don't swim as much as I should and I'm not an obsessive about music but this seems a very cool piece of kit  www.finisinc.com/technology/swimp3_technology.aspx that could make exercise a lot more pleasant.
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I'm guessing there are a few of my friends who will enjoy this....


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And something for all of you crafting/knitting/crochet friends


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I've now got the new LiveJournal Messenger. My Windows Live ID is tarvae@livejournal.com. Sign up now and we can chat!
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